A year ago today- Finding out I was pregnant!

Here is the story of how I found out I was pregnant. I cannot believe it has been a whole year since this day! I still remember it like it was yesterday and yet it is getting slightly fuzzy. 

 So I am writing this for your reading pleasure but mostly so I never forget as the years pass. 

November 10, 2015

I just felt like something was different. 

I don't know how to explain it. I just had this feeling like something was different with me. I had been doing the Basal Body Temp method of tracking my cycles. So I knew my tempature was staying high longer than normal but I still hadn't "missed" my cycle yet. I had an old unused pregnancy test that I was saving, because after 3 years of constantly thinking "maybe this is the month" I had gotten sick on getting my hopes up only to have the test come out negative. So I just stuck the last test I had in the bathroom cabinet thinking I would stop hurting myself and only take it if I was 100% sure it would be positive. 

It was positive. 

But I didn't believe it! I hadn't taken it till Justin had left for work because I didn't want to get his hopes up, yet again, if it wasn't positive. Even after seeing the faint lines I still didn't believe it! I thought it had to be because the test is old or something. So I went out to Walmart to buy another test never once telling Justin anything about what I was doing. Looking back that was really dumb of me... But anyway, the whole way to the store I was praying to the Lord that this wasn't some sort of joke He was letting me go through just so I could yet again lean on Him when my heart broke. I remember having WCIC on the radio and they were talking about babies and announcing pregnancies. Crazy, right?! I walked through the store in a daze thinking, "Should I take the test here or wait till I get home?" I figured it'd be weird to find out in a public bathroom stall so I waited. lol 

After taking 2 of the 3 tests throughout the day and both showing up positive I STILL didn't 100% let myself believe it was true so I waited yet another day before telling Justin! (I was so dumb, y'all... but I just couldn't wrap my mind around it) 

So on November 11, 2015 I took the last test in the box I had gotten the day before and stuck the positive test behind the tissue box in the bathroom. I wanted to wait to say anything so I could do something more special for telling Justin. Because after taking 4 tests in 2 days I was FINALLY letting myself believe that this was really happening! Justin texted me on his lunch break asking if my cycle had started yet because (he told me later) he was having a weird feeling that I was pregnant but didn't want to get MY hopes up. *laughs* Funny how the Lord works separately and yet exactly the same in our individual lives. I told Justin that I hadn't started yet (the truth)

 but changed the subject cause I didn't want him finding out he was going to be a Daddy over text. 

I had seen loads of cute ways to announce one's pregnancy but for some reason I wanted to go simple and sweet instead of over the top. Which is really weird considering my personality and how long I waited. lol But I decided I wanted to capture Justin's reaction so I put a sign on the front door and then waited with a camera to video him walking in. 

Cute and simple.

He texts me that he is on his way home which means I had 5 minutes of torture waiting for him. After what seemed like hours I finally hear him pull in the driveway and then his boots are walking up our front porch. I waited, holding my breath and pressed record on my phone. I hear him pause while reading this note and then swing the door open as fast as he can with a wide eyed look of excitement and disbelief (see I wasn't the only one who didn't believe it at first! ;)) on his face he asks, "ARE YOU SERIOUS!!? Are you really serious?!" Of course I start crying and nodding like a blubbering little girl, "Yes! I'm totally serious!" NOW it is all truly starting to sink in. We're going to have a baby!! He grabs me in a bear hug and keeps asking me over and over again if I'm truly serious (he was in shock y'all). We kiss and hug our emotions out and then he immediately starts praying and thanking the Lord for this answer to our prayers and for the safety of our baby. 

After I show him the positive tests and we talk more about our little one we realize we have to go to a family dinner with my parents and married siblings! We decide then and there that we want to keep this precious baby to our selves for a few weeks. So we went to the dinner with huge smiles on our faces and kept the whole thing under wraps as best we could. Of course after we told our families 2 weeks later on Thanksgiving Day all my siblings say they totally knew something was up that night but they didn't want to hurt our feelings by asking yet again if we were pregnant. Who knows what we would have said if they had asked. ;) 

Once we got home we took this picture together to always remember that day. (Like we needed any help. lol) 

Happiness and a look of relief of a long infertility burden lifted, written all over our faces. 

That is the end of our amazing story. 

Like I said this is mostly for us to never forget the finer details but I hope y'all enjoyed reading this too. I know I enjoyed reliving it while writing. 

Until next time! 

~Meli